Thursday, April 21, 2005
Best Friend's Baby
So my best friend had her baby yesterday. I forgot to mention this in my earlier post. She had a little girl...So cute. I was so scared to go to the hospital. I told her I might have a hard time with it...so many emotions. But, I was OK. Surprisingly, not a single tear even threatened to show! I was so glad for her. She was supposed to have a C-section yesterday but went into labor instead. So now she has an 18-month old and a newborn. And I have nothing. I feel so inadequate, so inferior, so...defective. I really want to have a baby. Its almost like I need to prove to myself that I can do this. Please, God, let that be ME in the hospital glowing with pride over my new baby...and let it happen SOON.
| posted by Anna at 4:17 PM
