Monday, October 29, 2007
saw the doc
I spent two hours at the doctor's office today. I'm only 4w pregnant, so there was no point in doing an ultrasound, but the doc took blood to check my beta level (I go back Thursday for the 2nd blood draw) and did an internal exam. He said things look good - no spotting, cervix closed, etc. so as of now I'm cautiously optimistic. Of course, we won't know anything for sure until probably Friday, and I know that even then, betas that double at the beginning can still end later on, but a little good news would certainly help my mood and stress level. (My BP was elevated today at the doctor's office...imagine that!) Anyway, so far, things look to be going all right. As I said, I am cautiously optimistic. I wish so badly to be happy and excited. I hope that wish comes true.
| posted by Anna at 10:06 PM
Sunday, October 28, 2007
spotting
Well, this morning when I got to church and went to the bathroom there was a bright red streak of blood and CM on the TP. Any sign of blood during a pregnancy always signals miscarriage so I am not optimistic. In four pregnancies, Andrew's is the ONLY one in which I never saw a hint of blood. There's been no more spotting or blood or anything, so I guess there's hope that things are OK...I am just too afraid to hold out any hope.I HATE THIS. I hate the drama that pregnancy brings. I hate that my sweet husband goes on an emotional rollercoaster every time we see a BFP. (But I am so glad to have him to share the journey with.)
I'll update as soon as I know anything.
| posted by Anna at 4:46 PM
Saturday, October 27, 2007
still pregnant
Well, I'm still pregnant! I *think* the tests are getting darker. I never heard from the stupid OB on call, so I don't have progesterone yet, but I got some progesterone cream and I'm slathering it on twice a day. I have plenty of fatty parts so no problem there. :)Anyway, just wanted to let y'all know...Still pregnant, still terrified...
| posted by Anna at 11:07 PM
Friday, October 26, 2007
update
Hey, thanks for the congrats! I didn't know there were that many people who still looked at this blog! Wow! Also, I've discovered that two friends have been hiding their pregnancies but outed themselves to me after hearing my news! Don't worry - I'll keep it quiet. :)So anyway, two more faint positives today. I checked my chart and I'm only 12 DPO, so I guess that's OK. I would be freaking out if they were this light at 14-15 DPO. In fact, I'm freaking out now but trying desperately to stay calm. I called the OB first thing this morning, and wouldn't you know it? She's out of town for a week. The nurse midwife called me back to tell me. I told her the situation and she said she would try to talk to the doc on call and see if he would call something in for me despie not knowing me or my situation. Its been 4 hours and I haven't heard anything back. Hmmph. Oh, and of course its a Friday which means I would ahve to wait all weekend before having the chance to hear anything if they don't cal back within 3 hrs.
I called and left another message. Hopefully they'll get the point and let me know something. In the meantime, though, I went and got some progesterone cream and will use that in the meantime. I can't just sit here and do NOTHING. I know I can't do anything about genetic mishaps, but there are a few things I CAN do to help sustain this little life. Taking progesterone is one of those things.
Anyway. I told my parents about the pregnancy, and they were excited but "wanted me to keep it quiet until I see the doctor." I guess having two miscarriages has made them cautious. Heh. They have no idea. I would love to shout this from the rooftops, but fear has crippled me. I have yet to say anything about "the baby"...Instead, I say "I have gotten four positive pregnancy tests." Sad. I am so excited and I am praying every 30 seconds for God to protect this little one and spare his/her life, but I know too well what can happen.
So, anyway, any prayers/good vibes are all very much appreciated. Please keep 'em coming!
| posted by Anna at 1:48 PM
Thursday, October 25, 2007
Wow.
Ummm...I just got not one, but TWO positive pregnancy tests. The line is faint, but vey there. Chris saw it without even knowing what to look for. I'm terrified, but excited as well. Right now I'm just begging God to protect the life of this child. I'll test again in the morning and, if I get another BFP, I will call my OB and demand progesterone. Wow. I don't know what else to say. Just...wow.
| posted by Anna at 10:25 PM
Sunday, October 14, 2007
Toddler Bed!
Oh.my.gosh.Andrew is currently sleeping in his toddler bed. I am shocked and SO not ready for this.
We tried co-sleeping but Andrew hated it (would NOT sleep), so he has always been in a crib. He sleeps beautifully...started sleeping 8 hrs straight at 6 weeks old, then started sleeping 12-13 hrs straight at @ 3 months.
Our friends got their boys a set of bunk beds about 4-5 months ago, so they sold us their 4-yr-old's adorable firetruck toddler bed at a very cheap price. Its just been sitting in his room since then, just letting him get used to it. We were not going to force the issue or anything. My friend's daughter slept in her crib until she was 3.5 and did great. We were in no rush. Still aren't. Tonight, he fussed instead of going right to sleep, so when I went to get him, he climbed up in the firetruck bed. I thought I would just see what happened, so I transferred the mattress and - much to my shock and surprise - he laid down and went right to sleep!
Who knows if he'll sleep through the night, wake up freaked out, or whatever. If he wants to go back to his crib tomorrow, that's fine. But for now, he's in his toddler bed and I am amazed at how grown up my little boy is getting.
| posted by Anna at 8:34 PM
